Sunday, December 26, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
The most exciting part about studying at new studios is that I'm not really there. I'm practicing from a different part inside me, practicing from the heart, and the heart resides at the Chula Vista Yoga Center. I can feel it radiate from within me, like a beacon of light.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
It feels funny to be up so late. For the last 6 weeks I've been going up to bed at about 10 or as early as 9 every night and getting up at 6:30. I love it, I love getting up early in the morning, but for some reason it feels really good to be up right now. I feel mischievous and young, like those high school days where I would stay up and draw and listen to records.
I found myself feeling lonely earlier even though I was in the presence of good friends and now that I am by my lonesome I can feel them here with me. There's no reason to be lonely, just alone.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
I am completely stoked for my yoga family and myself to start our new lives. We will be bringing something unique, energizing, introspective, creative and fun to the yoga community where ever we end up, and it will always be with love. Love love love love.
With this training I now have the confidence to pursue art on a different level, before it was for recognition because I never felt good enough just being myself. I felt like I had to have something to show for, some sort of fame. Now I realize that I cannot be anything but who I truly am, and I am more than enough. I'm working on creating a body of work, paintings and illustrations, participating in group shows and in time will be pursuing a career in the tattoo industry.
All the while yoga will be there. I will develop my practice to its fullest and try my hardest to show people my heart and help them find peace of mind through breath.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Yoga teacher training is nearing its end, and I'm amazed at how many opportunities are coming my way. Now I just have to figure out what to do. Give SDSU another try and enroll in painting? Take off to Hawaii and volunteer on an organic farm? Apprentice at FSG tattoo? Take off to Portland? whatever I decide to do, I will live it wholeheartedly, and it will be filled with love and union through yogic teachings.
Mantras to live by:
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground on which I stand."
"Nothing is permanent except impermanence."
Training is so much more than I had previously imagined. I knew I wanted it, and I knew I could not live without it. I thank God that in this life I was brought to the yoga center by energetic forces and have discovered my true nature. I cannot describe how incredibly strong our circle is, I'm blessed to have such an awesome yoga family, and I'm totally stoked to know that they will always have my back in matters of teaching, friendship and family.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
On another note, Awesome Fest is this weekend and I am so stoked to see RVIVR, Screaming Females and Cheap Girls! I highly doubted I would get to see any of those bands, last time Screaming Females came through I think I was sick and very upset about it. Its gonna be incredibly fun, my first show being sober! I don't even care that I'm not gonna be drunk cause with music this good all I need to do is sing along.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO LIFE SURROUND YOU/NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO DEATH SURROUNDS/AS TIME IT SPEEDS AND SLOWS/YOUR GUTS THEY ACHE FROM THE CHANGE/YOU FEAR YOU’VE LOST CONTROL/CUZ NOTHING EVER STAYS THE SAME/AND THEN AN OLD FRIEND SANG TO ME/”WE GOTTA FIND SOME ENERGY”/TO BALANCE IN BETWEEN/BEING REAL AND BEING FREE/RAIN DOWN SOME CHANGE ON ME/FLOW THRU ME LIKE A STREAM/LIGHT FIRE ‘NEATH MY FEET/BALANCE ME IN BETWEEN/WHEN YOU CAN’T GET WHAT YOU WANT/WHEN YOU FORGET HOW TO BREATHE/HANDS NUMB YOU GRIND YOUR TEETH/GIRL THAT AIN’T WHAT YOU NEED!/AS TIME IT SPEEDS AND SLOWS/LIFE SURROUNDS YOU/YOU FEAR YOU’VE LOST CONTROL AS DEATH SURROUNDS YOU/HOW DOES IT END?/I THINK YOU ALREADY KNOW/WE GOTTA GROW/WE GOTTA GO
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
This weekend was really fun and new and exciting, i'm feeling super lazy because of it. A lot of late nights and early mornings, a lot of driving; and at some point it was a bit of a let down on a personal note but also a wake up call. Everyone is doing their own thing, living their own life. It's really my time to set out and create the world I want to live in.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I feel like I don't know who I am, I'm just rambling through this life.. rambling on and on and on.. thinking contemplating remembering. I feel like I can't be myself cause I don't know who I am.
i feel i feel i feel i feel...
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
surreal. It makes me wonder why people feel a need to
have a one on one connection. What makes us so dependent?
Even people who cheat and lie still feel the need to have
one person that they can share a relationship with that
they don't possess with anyone else.
What does that say about humans as a whole?
Saturday, February 27, 2010
right now- creating strong friendships with people, experiencing
new things everyday, observing and living day to day- not
waiting for things to happen. I'm in the now, not the past- not
It feels amazing.
New friendships are where its at. Feeling content is where its at.
Lying on this bed listening to new music is where its at.
Friday, February 19, 2010
If only it were that simple.
Eliminate cheating, be in love, still have the freedom to see other people. But it all gets complicated. Feelings for other people arise, maybe a child is conceived, jealousy.... yeah. Be unattached.
You're bound to get hurt.
Everyone is at sometime whether you're monogamous or not.
Monday, February 15, 2010
My perceptions of life have been changing so greatly as of the last few months. I'm surprising myself as to the things I aspire to do. I deeply want to explore other cities, to be out of my element. I've lived in the same place all my life I'd really like to feel some culture shock & live somewhere green and lush, where it rains often and perhaps where breweries abound. Guess you could say I yearn to experience things I've never experienced before.
I've been finding comfort in the thought of being married and having kids, & if you've known me for the last few years, thats a big wtf? in my book. My whole way of thinking has been flipped upside down. It's a great feeling, a genuine feeling. I'm open to new experiences, I'm not scared to change my mind because I have nothing to lose. A great weight has been lifted off of my chest and I feel rather daring..
San Francisco, Portland or Seattle.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
My latest work! The whale was a gift for my best friend Danielle, she loves whales, and we decided to get matching whale tattoos after I gave her the painting.
The little guy will be filled in soon. I'm going to keep it black & grey so it will match the black & grey phonograph below it. I decided to name him Bogie, Danielle named her's Humphrey and I couldn't resist having a play on Humphrey Bogart, which will probably be a joke that only I will understand.
I really need to start painting more, the time to get serious and transfer schools is coming near. I've been doing a lot of sweet pen & ink illustrations and will hopefully get around to posting them.