Saturday, February 27, 2010

rainy days at work, cozy beds at home, midnight movies with friends.

Been thinking a lot lately.. pfft like always. I love the spot I'm at
right now- creating strong friendships with people, experiencing
new things everyday, observing and living day to day- not
waiting for things to happen. I'm in the now, not the past- not
the future.

It feels amazing.

New friendships are where its at. Feeling content is where its at.
Lying on this bed listening to new music is where its at.

Friday, February 19, 2010

interesting evening

From the events and conversation of last night I have come to the conclusion that conventional relationships are too restrictive, they ask and expect too much of a person. Maybe thats what makes people go crazy in relationships, the lack of freedom and the guilt. Society expects us to be someone's one and only love and their best friend.

If only it were that simple.

Eliminate cheating, be in love, still have the freedom to see other people. But it all gets complicated. Feelings for other people arise, maybe a child is conceived, jealousy.... yeah. Be unattached.

You're bound to get hurt.
Everyone is at sometime whether you're monogamous or not.

Monday, February 15, 2010

beer drinking and deep thinking

My perceptions of life have been changing so greatly as of the last few months. I'm surprising myself as to the things I aspire to do. I deeply want to explore other cities, to be out of my element. I've lived in the same place all my life I'd really like to feel some culture shock & live somewhere green and lush, where it rains often and perhaps where breweries abound. Guess you could say I yearn to experience things I've never experienced before.

I've been finding comfort in the thought of being married and having kids, & if you've known me for the last few years, thats a big wtf? in my book. My whole way of thinking has been flipped upside down. It's a great feeling, a genuine feeling. I'm open to new experiences, I'm not scared to change my mind because I have nothing to lose. A great weight has been lifted off of my chest and I feel rather daring..

San Francisco, Portland or Seattle.
We'll see.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

epic sketchbook post

My illustration teachers suggested that the class watch 'The Holy Mountian' by Alejandro Jodorowsky & this image of a squid being pulled from a tumor stuck in my mind. I love it, it's an awesome metaphor, and makes me think of releasing the darkness and brutality within.

I'm super stoked on this unicycle drawing, well I'm super stoked about all of these drawings, but this one most of all. It's the first page in my new sketchbook and I love unicycles, I've always wanted one & I will have one..someday!

Inspired by Laura Stevenson & the Can's song 'The Pretty one'

Tibetan skulls are a common image within the tattoo industry & my friend JT wants to get one on his inner arm and a hanya mask on the opposite arm. Well he inspired me to draw this & its still a work in progress. I'd like to do something in the background incorporating swirling black and grey clouds and maybe cherry blossom petals, I was just so excited about the mask that I completely negelected the background, so foolish! Beginner drawing mistake number one! I know better..

Inspired by the Heather's song 'Remember When'. Music influences my life so much, I just sketched something out the other day illustrating how an Asian Kung-Fu Generation song makes me feel when I listen to it. I think it's really neat to see music in a 2d form.

I drew this for my friend Sean the other night when my illustration class got canceled. I went to his cafe intent on drawing but i couldn't think of a damn thing to draw, so he told me an idea he had for a tattoo & i sketched it out. He loved it so much that he's going to use it as a logo for his band Old Wives Tale. I love drawing for other people, especially ideas for tattoos, it's completely awesome to be able to illustrate ideas just the way they were imagining them.

I made a very big decision the other day, and I've decided that if I don't get into SDSU in the fall that i'm going to ditch going to school for painting and goto a naturopathic medicine school in Oregon or Washington. I've been working towards going to a university for art for such a long time that I was really afraid to change my mind about it, but this doesn't mean it will be over. I will always be able to paint and draw and even be in galleries. I just want to be happy.. "Happiness is my religion". I also would like to do something that really benefits people not just create visual art & put tattoos on people's bodies.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

most days feel like an epic battle

Feeling very contemplative. Life and its mysteries, I tell ya its a bitch sometimes.